wish he could see it works both ways

I have an amazing lover, he ticks so many boxes.. Affectionate, tactile, intelligent, attractive and damn filthy!

At times he thinks he can't be enough for me, its because we met on a swingers site but to be honest neither of us are swingers, we were both just looking to fill a hole in our lives sexually and we both have tastes off the beaten track. The upside is the honesty we entered the relationship with. We both know what each other like and want.the downside is that my profile and verifications were explicite and showed my insatiable appetite. I had a female friend I also had a profile with and a male friend, we used to go to swing clubs and hosted parties. But... Contrary to that I was a fusy fucker... I liked to watch, I only fucked with my swing partner, only ever did soft swing in groups.

So he worries he falls short... But he never has, if anything I want less now I have him as he gives me so much.

He doesn't see that I worry I might not be enough for him, that he might play away but I trust him. He doesn't trust me. He is jealous, he keeps letting it eat away at him, worrying that I will get bored and fuck someone. It nearly ended us 2 weeks ago, he rejoined the swing site in Dec to see if I was on there. I wish he had just asked me. I wish he had just seen I'd meant it when I promised I wouldn't. I founf out that he has been searching for me online since Xmas. Whereas I'd been treading on eggshells and frightened to go out incase he thought I was with someone. Everything feels fragile again. I worried this was the last time I'd see him.

I need him to understand how he would feel if the shoe was on the other foot. If I'd gone online searching for men that sounded like him and talked to them trying to get them to give away detail and send pics!