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Thursday 24 February 2011

could really do with a cuddle

let see if I can get this down and make sense

last week mum got drunk, she got agressive and started threatening me and dad, we tried to calm her down and eventually she fell asleep pissed. She calls at about 5ish and asks if dad is there, before i reply no she launches into that if he is tell him to piss off and never come home again, she starts swearing and being vile. This I can cope with but my daughter was sat on my knee as we did her homework so I got up and walked into the other room and let loose.

I tell her to never contact me again, im done.

The next night I started to make tea, Dad decided to join us at about 6:30 and thought he would give daughter a guitar lesson.

at 7:30 she rings my house and I ignore the call, dad decides to leave and head home, as he arrives home he sees a taxis leaving the estate with her in it, to his disapointment she arrives back seconds later she had decided to come to my house to look for Dad, despite me telling her she was not welcome anymore.

The next day Dad calls me, Mum has forgotten that she even spoke to me, let alone the fact that I dont want her to contact me. Mum calls and leaves message asking to dinner and a girly night.

I ignore the calls, the phone rings relentlessly, Im delivering a talk, part of one of my voluntary days I do for charity and the message rack up. Then my dad starts to leave messages.

He had returned home to find the house full of smoke and the cooker was on with foos all burning away and no sign of Mum. Dad then finds her slupped upstairs and unable to speak. The paramedics are called it looks like she has had a stroke.

She started to get aggressive and the paramendics couldnt deal with her, eventually the sedate her and get her to hospital. After hours of tests and her trying to escape 3 times but she cant walk as it becomes apparent she has snapped her ankle and she is a BIG woman walking on a snapped bone. The blood tests and scans come back.

bearing in mond that the tests were taken many hours after she was first found by dad she was 6 times over the legal limit. Doctirs think she has drank 1 ltr of spirit.

The Doctors were great, he told dad that even he had belive she hadnt drank she had protested at the accusation so much, spouting that she had been dry for nearly a year,they told dad to go home and rest they really looked after him I think they could see how destroyed he was. It looks like the doctors have really got a grip on this and are looking to get her in rehab.

Theyve kept her in hospital. She needs several operations on her ankle and I think they are trying to dry her out and let her see what she has done. This morning she woke up in hospital not knowing how she got there or how she hurt herself.

It looks like my brother has now taken the same stance as me and has cancelled his visit home with his children.

Dads in a mess but today he took a positive step forward, he booked an appointment with a divorce lawyer.

Everyones away, kids and husband are visiting his family, im feeling pretty alone with this and no shoulder to cry on.

I so need a big bear hug.

Monday 14 February 2011

Valentines - I feel so loved - then they robbed me blind

Woke up to the sound of my son saying he loves me, such a wonderful way to start the day.

The husband had bought me a card, its huge, lacking thought and sentiment but typical bloke thinking size matters.

I hurry to get dressed and leave house for the school run, my daughter reaches the car ahead of me and turns to me horrified, we've been broken into. Theyve taken loads.

The kids ipods that were hidden away, laptop in boot, mummys naughty toy bag even!

So day has been spent dealing with the aftermath and calming children down as it seems the thieves entered the house for my keys.

Nightmare! :(

Saturday 5 February 2011

Another hard week

It's been a tough week again. Monday I had my wisdom tooth out that they made the mess of the other month. They had to take a bit if the jaw out as well so I'm in agony. Swelling is going down now but it's driving me nuts.

While lay in bed dwelling on the pain I decided to start a diet. I didn't sleep at all Monday night planning a new me and taking painkillers.

Tuesday I was so tired and pain seemed amplified so I did the sensible thing and went on a bike ride! Yes I regretted it when u was about a mile from the house, my knee cap popped out if joint (fell 2weeks ago and meant to be resting it) the air was so cold it ached my jaw. I walked back with bike and surrendered to my bed.

Wednesday was pretty quiet for me, managed work then chilled out.

Thursday all he'll broke lose! I'd just left my parent house after a morning coffee with dad, he called laughing but I could tell it was more a "you will never believe it" kind of laugh. As I'd driven off mum had arrived home, first time for a long while she has been out unsupervised, she was sober.... But.... She was horrified to find dad still home. Dad is sharp on this and watches her carefully, she is trying to hide her handbag. He asks whats wrong and she waffles about not feeling well, dad tells her to sit down and he will make a cup if tea. As he goes in the kitchen she makes a dive for her handbag unaware dad us now stood watching. She fails to hide the 2 bottles of vodka and the cigerettes in time. Dad takes them off her and stands sobbing, "the first time I trust and hope you don't fall off the band wagon". He leaves the house with the drink and cigarettes and calls me laughing, hysterics.

Mum calls me looking for dad, she is crying saying she needs help, she says she bought booze but hasn't drank it. I already know the answer but I ask her did you get caught and not drink or not drink because you know you shouldn't which is what she is suggesting on the phone. She falls quiet and sobs she was caught. She says she needs help, I was strong and told her to start by helping herself and when she can prove she doing something about it I will support her. She snaps back at me she only wanted a drink today because me and dad don't love her, I calmly tell her we are at this point because of the drink and we do love you we just hate the lies and the person the drink makes you.

She goes off the phone crying.

A few hours later she calls back and says she has promised a special trip for my son can she take him, I tell her no, she isn't allowed to look after my children unsupervised why would I make an exception and especially on a day she gas proved she can't be trusted.

Meanwhile it seems she had called her sister for support, she was drunk and thought it wise to post all the woe on face book!!! My brother calls dad to find out what's happening and it all kicks off! Mum finds out brother knows and kicks off that dad has told him, she is horrified to hear her sister did the telling.

You couldn't write a soap like this could you??

Anyway in short diet going well, face hurts still and my family are driving me nuts!!

whyy not

Chose one of below
A) I tend not to play with guys that say 'wanna play with me'
B) I have no idea who you are so why would I
C) because I'm losing valuable minutes of my life justifying myself when I have the right to have a preference

:)

Ask me anything

heyyyyy sexy!!!! whats up? do u want to have any kinda of fun with me?

No :)

Ask me anything

Friday 4 February 2011

Another hard week

It's been a tough week again. Monday I had my wisdom tooth out that they made the mess of the other month. They had to take a bit if the jaw out as well so I'm in agony. Swelling is going down now but it's driving me nuts.

While lay in bed dwelling on the pain I decided to start a diet. I didn't sleep at all Monday night planning a new me and taking painkillers.

Tuesday I was so tired and pain seemed amplified so I did the sensible thing and went on a bike ride! Yes I regretted it when u was about a mile from the house, my knee cap popped out if joint (fell 2weeks ago and meant to be resting it) the air was so cold it ached my jaw. I walked back with bike and surrendered to my bed.

Wednesday was pretty quiet for me, managed work then chilled out.

Thursday all he'll broke lose! I'd just left my parent house after a morning coffee with dad, he called laughing but I could tell it was more a "you will never believe it" kind of laugh. As I'd driven off mum had arrived home, first time for a long while she has been out unsupervised, she was sober.... But.... She was horrified to find dad still home. Dad is sharp on this and watches her carefully, she is trying to hide her handbag. He asks whats wrong and she waffles about not feeling well, dad tells her to sit down and he will make a cup if tea. As he goes in the kitchen she makes a dive for her handbag unaware dad us now stood watching. She fails to hide the 2 bottles of vodka and the cigerettes in time. Dad takes them off her and stands sobbing, "the first time I trust and hope you don't fall off the band wagon". He leaves the house with the drink and cigarettes and calls me laughing, hysterics.

Mum calls me looking for dad, she is crying saying she needs help, she says she bought booze but hasn't drank it. I already know the answer but I ask her did you get caught and not drink or not drink because you know you shouldn't which is what she is suggesting on the phone. She falls quiet and sobs she was caught. She says she needs help, I was strong and told her to start by helping herself and when she can prove she doing something about it I will support her. She snaps back at me she only wanted a drink today because me and dad don't love her, I calmly tell her we are at this point because of the drink and we do love you we just hate the lies and the person the drink makes you.

She goes off the phone crying.

A few hours later she calls back and says she has promised a special trip for my son can she take him, I tell her no, she isn't allowed to look after my children unsupervised why would I make an exception and especially on a day she gas proved she can't be trusted.

Meanwhile it seems she had called her sister for support, she was drunk and thought it wise to post all the woe on face book!!! My brother calls dad to find out what's happening and it all kicks off! Mum finds out brother knows and kicks off that dad has told him, she is horrified to hear her sister did the telling.

You couldn't write a soap like this could you??

Anyway in short diet going well, face hurts still and my family are driving me nuts!!